Why when I should be happy and smiling do I always have this gnawing sadness?
Why when I am happy that Daniel is doing something new, do I smile then get sad? Because I realize that he should have done it two yrs ago?
I hate this feeling. There are times when we’re laughing and having fun,and then the next minute tears are in my eyes and my chest aches.
Why can’t I be happy with how things are? they could be worse right?
I am so sick of being depressed about what should have been or what will come. Why can’t I just live and be happy?