Thursday, September 4, 2008
To the School Gods...
What would it be called to be really really excited to do something, to go somewhere and then when you get there......FORGET it you want to go home, you cry and you flip out? We will call it "Daniel". Daniel is very very excited to go to school, the ride there is fun, he holds his backpack and tries to unzip it to get to the yellow folder that he knows is inside. He is excited when I say its time for school and we are gathering everything up. Then we get there and we are waiting outside the door, the excitement is still there, until the door opens and he starts getting pushed in his chair down the hallway... I can count...1, 2, 3 WHAM the tears start flowing! It is killing me. I can't stand that he is scared. Or I assume he is scared. Daniel is non verbal so all I can do is read his body language. The teacher, therapist and para pro's all say that he is fine once he gets in the class room and starts playing with the other kids and toys. I just feel so guilty leaving him there. I know this is standard for kids to be upset, but because he has "special needs" I feel 100 times more guilty! Everyone at the school is very nice and tell me that its normal and he just needs to get use to the transition. UUUUGH, the guilt of leaving him there crying, and I feel so sorry for the people there. I just hope that they will give him time and not judge him and think he is a problem child. He is really a lovable little guy, he is just scared. Actually he is really awesome and all smiles when he gets use to everything. Please don't judge him based on the first few days. Don't carry a grudge and say to yourself "oh no here comes Daniel" because he is an amazing child.
To the school gods above, I am on my knees....please please please I am praying, when the school doors open today, don't let Daniel be crying! I beg of ye!