It must have been fate.
I haven't been able to get around to read my favorite blogs lately, and today Fate must have intervened.
I have been very melancholy lately. Couldn't put my finger on it exactly, but I had an idea what it was. Then I read Ellen's post .
She just happens to nail it.
And please when I am posting this do NOT think that I do not love my family, my son, husband or the girls. Because I do with everything in me, but where is my little house with the picket fence or the pretty yard, my life of grandeur?
Where is the not so stressed people we were before? Why does EVERYTHING have to be a fight? I want the relationship where there is more than the conversations that Ellen talks about. Again she nailed it, I would have thought that she was eavesdropping on us though a whole week!
She is lucky, they plan date nights and stuff. We unfortunately don't, its just not as easy for us. Daniel goes to bed and we tend to both go our own ways to get the stuff done that we need to get done. The stuff that is easier to do without a little one at your feet (special needs or not).
But I have been thinking about posting something similar for a while but didn't know how to approach it, and thanks to Ellen--- I don't have too! So check it out and read her post, I'm excited to see how many other people out there are in the same boat. I always feel like I'm alone in these things, and its nice to know.... I'm not.
Although it doesn't take the wishful thoughts away of having that perfect family, that perfect relationship, there is comfort knowing I am not the only one.
So I will continue to be Daniel's "Cruise Director" (as put by Katy) and Lonnie will continue to be my support, and be Daniel's play mate. Both of which are equally as important.
Now I will pull out my "Cruise Director" hat and see about scheduling in some date nights for the adults!