Tuesday, August 11, 2009


A friend of my used a word the other day in an email and when I read it, I kind of giggled.


Thanks Keri for putting a word to what it is that I need to do. I realized that I get into these "funks" every once in a while. Usually I have one funk a year that is a whopper and lasts for a couple weeks.

My current funk, I think we're going on a few months now.
definition of a funk per Melanie - Everything sucks. E V E R Y T H I N G!
No matter what you do, it doesn't make it better.
You might wake up in the morning and feel like "OK today is a new day" but within an hour you just want to crawl back into bed and shout to the gods " I GIVE UP!" or to each thing I'm going to list I want to say "I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE - LEAVE ME ALONE!"

Family life = SUCKS
Therapies = SUCKS
Work Stuff = SUCKS
Finances = SUCKS
Stress Levels = SUCKS
Surgery/Tests = SUCKS
Self Esteem = SUCKS
People in general = SUCK

If its not one thing its another. I know, I know...gotta look for that rainbow, the cloud with the silver lining.

Yeah well - SUCK it!(I say that with the utmost love in my voice)

Ok so I need to defunkify, and I need to do it quickly! Otherwise everything is going to go in the crapper and we can't have that!

TOMORROW is a new day........right?!?!


Keri said...

Man alive.... do I ever get it! In fact, I'm still in the midst of my defunkification. I sware, this has been one of the toughest cases of funk so far this year. Some cases are easier than others. Whether you want it to or not, funk is purely inevitable. It comes with the territory. I know you know this, but I'm just saying...

The month of July totally and completely obliterated me emotionally. It's taking FOREVER to crack through these layers of funk. It was literally one thing after another last month. How much crap can you cram in a one pound bag of crap before it just burst? Slowly but surely, I'm getting there but it isn't easy.

Not that it makes a world of difference, but know that I think of you daily. I suck at keeping in touch, but it's doesn't mean that I'm not thinking of you and your boy. I miss you two.

MeghatronsMom said...

Girl, you do what you have to do. How does the song go "We got da funk, we got da funk". This too shall pass. My list could be exactly like yours, except my weight really, really sofa king sucks! In the meanwhile, keep writing & venting. We are here for you & hopefully it will help you work through it. Much love, sista!

baby trevor's mommy said...

Was I supposed to laugh?

And if I did...do I suck too? ;)

You know it...so I don't need to say it...but somehow it's like you have to, right? It will pass... Funks come...and sometimes hang around for awhile...but they eventually go.

In the meantime...wine!


ferfischer said...

Oh thank you for this - this made me laugh today, and if that gives you any indication, I really do get it. I wonder if I've been in a 10 month FUNK myself. :)

Katy said...

For some reason I feel the need to shout GET THE FUNK OUT! Is that from a movie or did my weird brain just make it up?

C said...

Hey, Mel. BTDT, doin' still, will again. Wanted to pass on to you a book title that I've found shockingly useful: The Mood Cure. Talks about supplements (all available cheap at vitacost.com) that can prop up good neurotransmitter levels. I'm taking stuff now and it had made a world of difference. It also has me wondering about little guys' brains -- could the punkins use some of this? If so, how? I have the name of a good local nutritionist who "isn't afraid of unconventional approaches." So I'm hoping she can tell me more about this. But how cool is it that they know that certain substances affect function in certain lobes of the brain? Makes me really wonder about that motor stuff, ya know?

Holly said...

Are you done defunkifying? I just put a post up with Caleigh's amazing crown!

I love love love it! You are an amazing artist...Hope that makes you feel better. De Funk...De Funk...