Saturday, January 19, 2008

John 9: 1-3

I have gone through many different "stages" of accepting and changing what our life is. Some times I blame myself that Daniel has these disabilities because of something I did wrong during my pregnancy, or because I must have sinned really bad and this is how I have to repent. I have gone the route that its just a mix of Lonnie and I and it just didn't come out "right". I have gone the other route that its just a fluke. And sometimes I come back to its my fault he has to fight these horrible things. I blame myself.

But most of the time, if someone came up to me and said "I can make Daniel "normal" but he won't be like the Daniel you know now." I would tell them to forget it. I accept Daniel. I accept that he is different, and I love him for that. There is no way in any way shape or form that I would change, go back in time, fix, redo.....anything with Daniel. I love him beyond the ends of earth, I love him more that I can imagine loving anyone. And I want him to know how proud I am of him, and how wonderful he is and that I would NEVER trade him for anything.

Now, ask me if I accept how society treats people with disabilities.....and we're into a whole other blog! A blog that will allow me to use colorful language that I can't use here! Do I accept how things are difficult for Daniel?....NO. Will I fight to make sure that he has everything and anything that he needs to succeed? Well, sure I will or I wouldn't' be a good parent. Regardless if he had a disability or not, I would do it.

I want people to treat Daniel as if he is a typical child and not give him special treatment because he is different. I do not want people to pity Daniel or his family. I want them to learn from his struggles (and hopefully this blog is helping).

I believe Daniel is here to bless my life. Yes I have other children and I have learned a tremendous amount from them and I still am. But God gave me a child with special needs because he knew that I needed someone to need me...I needed to learn something...I needed to understand. And I have been blessed........with Daniel.

John 9:1-3
As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples ask him, "Who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?"

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."

I guess a little bit of my religous parents rubbed off on me. I knew I loved them for a reason! :)


BusyLizzyMom said...

I still think to myself that if we had gotten married before Elizabeth then things would be different for her. It's a silly thing to think really but I am not having another baby without getting married. We need all the luck we can get to have a full term baby. I love Elizabeth and would never trade her for anything, her spirit is amazing but what I don't want is for her to go through life being teased and an outcast because she does not fit the societal norms. My biggest wish is that no-one will break her spirit because that is what makes her so amazing and full of life.

Jacolyn said...

I love that passage. This morning at church the sermon was about being chosen. I believe we were chosen to care for some very special people and Grace and Daniel are chosen to do some wonderful things for the world. For some reason this passage spoke to me this morning...."For consider your calling brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble; but God has chosen the foolish to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong." 1 Cor 26-27

Maybe I should do a blog about this :)
Daniel and so blessed to have you and you are to have him.

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Anonymous said...

... and by the way...

i need you, i always have and always will i mean i am only your daughter and you are only my mother, you always need that reguardless...


Justinich Family said...

That verse just says it all. I think about why this happened to Evan to, but time has passed and my general feeling is acceptance but I do have those days where I am just so mad about it and having to fight for all the stuff he needs or worrying about the teasing etc.